TVT....Life has been CRAZY!!

What a better way to update you all on all out happenings around here than with a good old TVT! So, here goes.....

• My babies are 37 weeks 1 day old today. I carried them for exactly 37 weeks 1 day. They have officially lived in the real world longer than they lived in me. It makes me happy and sad at the same time. My little itty bitty babies are now big old movers and shakers. What happened?!?!?!
• My surgery went ok. I had some complications and lots of bleeding. It was pretty uncomfortable and painful for about a week. Just finally stopped spotting after very large doses of progesterone. It is not something I want to go through again.
• I had to help out a loved one over the past week. They were addicted to opiate pain medication and had to go into detox. They are doing great, but it is a long road ahead of them. Prayers needed. I can't help but think that Rob is helping guide them.
• I had sex!!!
• I also took a bath for the first time in 14 days. I LOVE baths and they are MY time. It was awesome, with lots of bubbles!.....ok. I took two. There, I confessed.
• Both kiddos are back in their helmets. They are adjusting great to the second one. I got so used to their little heads, and I am starting to miss them again. But, it is for the best.
• Tooth count: AJ - 1 big one. Caroline - 2 little ones. She got her second one last night.
• Caroline is crawling, standing, trying to walk, pulls up on everything. My active little girl. AJ is army crawling, rolling everywhere and starting to pull up. He is just a bit chunkier and doesn't care much for the whole moving everywhere thing.
• I have lost 9 lbs since starting weight watchers. Woo Hoo!!! FINALLY back to pre-pregnancy weight. Now to get this infertility weight off.
• So many people have gotten preggo since I have been on here. Yeah!!!!!! God is good and working in all our lives.
• I wrote my brother's best friend in Africa yesterday to tell him about Rob's death. It was only a few weeks ago that I finally found his email address among his things. Rob was fortunate enough to travel to Africa to do mission work a couple years ago when he was sober, and he made great friends. Still, it was so sad to have to tell Isa about Rob. Brought back every emotion I have tried to cover up. Missing him still.

Have a great day!!!

Julia

D & C question

I need advice.

I had my D & C and Hysteroscopy on Thursday. Since then, I have been in pretty bad pain and have been bleeding a lot. My Dr. told my husband that the cramping should be minimal and that I wouldn't bleed much, but that is not the case. It feels like a really bad period and I am bleeding bright red. It isn't gushing, but it is definitely more than I expected.

Those of you who have had this procedure, did you experience the same thing? I am just wondering if I should call the Dr. or wait it out for my body to heal.

ouch!

julia

The results are in....surgery it is!!

Yep. You read that right. Another surgery.

I went in today for the results from my biopsy last week. I had to cancel the pap portion of the appointment because I am STILL bleeding. 22 days now. WTF?!?!?!

No, I do NOT have Cancer. Woo Hoo!!!!!

Apparently, I have Disordered Proliferative Endometrium. Pretty much, that means that I have really fucked up periods. My body is all out of whack from two years of fertility treatments and a twin pregnancy. I am also very estrogen sensitive, I can grow a polyp like nobody's business. So, having a daughter didn't help my lady parts.

Basically, my body is having multiple periods. It is like if you mow a lawn three different lengths. When one is ready, you only mow(shed) that section. When the next section is ready, it is mowed (sheds) and so on. This creates one loooooong, painful period.

My Dr asked me if I wanted more kids, and I immediately said yes. We talked about it, but it hasn't been a topic of discussion with the doc until today. I would love at least one more. We have 4 frosties. I wouldn't do a fresh cycle again, but I would give my littles a chance. One at a time...lol. He said we could try more bc pills and hope they work, but they haven't so far. And. I am taking two a day. And, I am sooooo sick of hormones in my body. The second option is to do a D and C and "restart" my cycle. This way, everything will be on the same timing. He said it should work. If not, we will see from there. He did say that the sooner we try for number 3, the better. He said a year is good, but 3 may be too long. He also said that I will probably have to have hysteroscopies every time I try to get preggo, D and C's every time my cycle goes out of whack, and who knows what else. He recommended that, when I am done having children, I have a hysterectomy. This isn't going to go away. Just become more inconvenient. Awesome!!!

So. I am having a D and C next week on Thursday, the 19th. I elected to go ahead with it and forego the bc pills route. Granted, I am still on them to hopefully clear things up. But, like I said before.....I am SO TIRED of hormones!!!! Plus, it is not like I can get knocked up anyway!

I have never had a D and C before. What are they like? What is the recovery like? Will my children survive my mother and Adam taking care of them for two days? Will I??????

I go back in a month to address the whole cyst/fibroid issue.

On a fun note. I made a lasagna for a friend of mine who had surgery. I have decided that I like making things for people. I feel like a little homemaker. And, she doesn't have food poisoning yet!

OMG!!!! A whole post without talking about A and C. They were angels at the Dr's office. They love to be loved on, and the nurses love to do that! Oh ya. C crawled out of her bath seat today while I was lotioning brother. If you have one, WATCH your kids. If I hadn't been there, who knows what would have happened.

Julia

300th Post

I have been thinking long and hard about what my 300th post would be about, and I decided to do it based on what makes me happy. My blog has transitioned from a family blog to an infertility blog to a parenting with twins after infertility blog. Some of you have been here the whole way. Some of you are new. I am so thankful for each and every one of you and your support over the past 3 years. Without this community, I may not have gotten through that bitch IF! Tomorrow I find out the results of my uterine and endometrial biopsies and we decide what to do about this huge cyst. (21 days of period and still going strong. I now take 2 pills a day to boost progesterone and hopefully make it stop.) I don't know what the future holds, but I do know one thing. I was blessed with 2 miracles. 2 miracles that at some times in the past, I was not sure I would ever have. My miracles make me happy.

So, without further adieu, here is my happiness.

The Triplets, September 18th, 2010

I swear there is a line!! 8dp3dt

Getting darker....

Yep!!! We are definitely preggo!!

First Positive Beta!!!

5 Weeks. Only picture with all three sacs

7 Weeks

9 Weeks

12 Weeks

14 Weeks

Looking at each other 14 weeks

It's a girl!!!

It's a boy!!!

22 Weeks

24 Weeks

25 Weeks

30 Weeks

35 Weeks

35 Weeks....real belly

37 Weeks 1 Day

Just born!!!

5 Minutes

10 Minutes

3 Hours

3 Hours

3 Days

10 Days

3 Weeks

1 Month

2 Months

3 Months

4 Months

5 Months

6 Months

7 Months

See....I told ya. My happiness!!!

xoxo

julia

Yep. I am still infertile.

Today I was reminded of just how infertile I still am. Before you read this, please be advised that it is pretty graphic.

Before I got pregnant, I was so regular that I could set my clock by my cycle. Every 28 days for 5-7 days. It had been that way since I was 13. Of course, when I did 6 IUI's and 2 rounds of IVF, my cycle got all kinds of messed up with the timed cycles and hormones. When I was pregnant, of course I didn't have a period and was fortunate enough to give birth at 37 weeks one day to a beautiful little girl and a handsome little man. They were born perfectly healthy and have never had more than a cold. That said, I would be more than grateful to God if they were all the children that we were ever able to have. But, the thought of having more is always something I have wanted. Not now, but one day.

Well, today I was kicked in the face with my infertility. I have had 4 periods since I gave birth 7 1/2 months ago. They started at 10 weeks after and have been pretty irregular since then. Once I went 2 months between, then 36 days, then 30, you get it. I had 7-10 days of spotting/bleeding, but I just thought it was me getting back to normal. I have heard it could take up to a year so I thought nothing of it. I started my last period on December 22nd. It was fairly normal and tapered off, but never really stopped. Just continued spotting. Well in the last couple days it has gone from brown to red again. Weird I thought. Well, today I was at the gym on the treadmill. I was almost done working out when I felt a gush. I went to the bathroom and there was bright red blood everywhere. Sorry for the TMI. I then started cramping. It got worse on the drive home, and so I took a bubble bath. I soaked for 30 minutes, and when I got out to take a shower and wash my hair, the water was red and there were clots everywhere. My cramping was so bad I could hardly stand. I happened to be on the phone with Alexis and she convinced me to call the doctor. I did, and they said they could get me in on Monday. OK.

I went to pick up the kids from MDO and couldn't walk. I parked in the handicapped spot (granted there are 15) and got many looks from the other moms and the security guard. I didn't care. It freaking hurt. I made it in and got the kids, but unloading them, I had to hold onto the car. On the way home, I stopped and got a pain pill from Adam at work. He has a bad back. When we got home, I fed them and put them in their play yard. Then I got on the heating pad. I was soaking a tampon an hour at this point, so I thought it had passed. But the pain kept getting worse. I felt like I was in labor and that my uterus and rectum were going to fall out. I was contemplating going to the emergency room if it kept up. The pain meds didn't touch it. So, I called the doctor again and begged to get in today. They said if I could be there by 4, they could get me in. Thank goodness I only live 5 minutes away. I packed up my sleepy kids and went to the doctor.

When I got there, the nurses took the babies and played with them while I went in and had a vaginal ultrasound, an abdominal ultrasound, an endometrial biopsy and a sonohysteroscopy. OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Adam got off early from work and came and picked them up for me.

Guess what. I have a very large cyst on my right ovary and fibroids all over my uterus. Again. Fuck!

My doctor put me immediately on birth control to hopefully shrink the cyst and stop the bleeding. He said he was concerned about the amount of blood I had lost. I have to take vitamins and iron and drink tons of water. He gave me a prescription to vicodin and told me to take it easy. Ya right! I have two babies at home!!

I go back next week for a pap and to get the results of the biopsy. I go back in a month to see if the cyst has shrunk. If it hasn't, I have to have another surgery. If the fibroids continue to make me have such bad periods and pain, I have to have surgery. If I ever want a chance in hell to have another baby, I have to have surgery. Thank God I have my 4 frost babies. So, I guess it is not a question of if but when I will have surgery.

No matter what I do, I will always be infertile. Infertility in a motherfucker!

I am blessed to have my 2 miracles. For them, I am eternally grateful!

Julia

Wordless Wednesday

Miss C

Mr. A

love them!!!!

j

diaper question

I woke up to a beautiful sight. Both my kids were playing happily in their cribs and let mommy sleep until 7:45!!!!

I walked in and Caroline was standing in her crib, happy as can be. Good thing we lowered the cribs last night!!!

I have a question for you. I need help with keeping my babies dry overnight. They get fresh, overnight diapers before bed, but 9 times out of 10, AJ is always wet in the morning and sometimes C is too. What should I do? Double up on the diapers? Buy bigger ones? They get a big bottle before bed, and I am sure this has a lot to do with it. Should I stagger it out into two? If so, will they still sleep through the night?

Hope you are all having a great day so far. I am so excited to see what my little ones will discover today!

Julia